the saddest thing I can think of is the death of a dictator. it represents complete failure. the thing is that we all are dictators, or at least I am. being a dictator is simply ruling my life strictly, according to my own ideas.

so… every time I fail, I imagine myself holding a gun inside my mouth, pointed to my brains, ready to flush all the pain away. I don’t die, because that would be cowardliness,  but I crumble into pieces. and it is no easy task to gather them together.

Die Welle (2008)